Hello and welcome back, lovely! If you are new here, hi!!
Today I am writing about radical honesty and where I had to be deeply honest with myself when it came to my mindfulness business (a second business I started in May 2022) and why I chose to step back from it for a while.
But let’s first rewind to the start of 2023…
As the year commenced, I found myself confronted by a message from the universe: “let something go.” I was confused and frustrated every time the guidance popped up. You know the feeling, right? (Check out a hilarious #oraclecards meme for a chuckle!) Let me tell you why.
I kept thinking I can’t let my VA business go because #duh it is what is paying the bills. My mind rationalizes that this is the only thing it can be. Why would I let go of my new business if that is ultimately what I want to do?
I had this expectation and attachment to how I wanted things to work out. Can you relate? I was going to create online courses and write and you name it, I had it all planned out. (I felt really like I’ve got this, I started a business once so of course I can do it again.)
I ignored the guidance and instead of asking for clarity, I just went on. Imagine me talking myself out of the guidance 😆
I pushed and pushed and pushed some more, hoping things will gain traction in the business. I was overwhelmed, tired, confused as to why things were so damn hard.
After many moments of sitting with this and talking things out with a friend (there really is something special about having friends you can talk to about these things).
I realized my intense fear of lack and a deep-rooted subconscious need to be seen and recognized for my value was the driving force behind why I started this business. That was a hard one to admit.
The fear of lack is one area my generational conditioning is playing out and 2023 has been a year with big feels, changes, and serious uncomfortability. 🥺
I was also more focused on the destination/dream than I was on the journey. (ouch, being honest with ourselves is hard.)
I was trying to slow down but still ensure my husband and I are taken care of and that my big ass dreams come to fruition. My intention was to build this second business so that it eventually replaces my VA business or be a second income stream. #allplanned lol
However, my fear of lack kept me chained up in a sense.
So after all this and deep reflective questions and soundboarding with hubby, I chose to step away from my mindfulness business for now. I am going back to basics. Sharing my journey, building friendships, and finding and enjoying the things I love.
My sole intention is to write, vlog and connect with fellow women on this journey of self-exploration/ self-healing & growth journey. I will be sharing my findings (the highs & the lows) and joys on Youtube so be sure to subscribe to my channel. From really deep and meaningful chats to all things random that make me happy to new hobbies and exploring our city and who knows what else.
I am open to being surprised by life and the Universe.
This is not me giving up after 12 months of something not working but instead taking a step back so that I can shift my vibration from building this business from a place of fear and instead because it lights me the f* up.
I want to leave you today with a question:
Where do you need to be more honest with yourself? Whether that’s in relation to your career, a business, friends, family, or a partner.
That’s it for now my lovelies, time to close the laptop and go out and BE!
Go on now, go find YOUR joy! (Oh, and don’t forget, please share your joys, experiences in the comments below.) I want to connect with you.
All my love,
Ings xo
